There are several posts I’ve been avoiding publishing this month about the new experiences I’ve been undertaking. I get it the things I’ve been doing appear scary, lost, occult…and maybe they are? I got a few worried text messages, after posting this. I do know that I’m here to explore and that I don’t need to be afraid to do so. I know many things parade as the light but are actually dark as the night.
On that note, how do we truly learn if we don’t venture into the night? Some don’t have that desire and I 100% respect that. It’s just not what my journey is about right now. If we’re seeking truth, constantly moving forward with discernment how will we end up more lost, than had we not tried? It all comes back to our intention, right? I’m not on this journey to glorify any which one way of thinking, I’m simply trying to love, connect, take note and expose human bias I see along the way. My goal is to heal, create community, honor individual journeys and perspectives but will always take what I find and compare it back to truth.
I don’t have a desire to hide and shield my eyes what goes on spiritually in this world. I have a deep yearning to know, and I learn through experience. Do these experiences take from me? Sure, everything has a cost. Every reaction has a equal reaction. Energy cannot be destroyed, but it does have the ability to be transformed, right?
I treat everything as information, every experience, conversation, book, workshop, etc. How am I suppose to tune my antenna, if I don’t know the other side of the coin? How do we relate to people, if we haven’t gone where they’ve gone? How are we suppose to create connection amongst people if we sit up in our high and mighty castles all day, casting judgments upon others? I don’t know why I’ve went through all these experiences lately. I do understand the concept, that it’s a “battle” over our minds and hearts. I do take every thought into consideration and evaluate all experiences. Do I do a great job of it? Not always, but I’m learning as I go. I’ve had a handful of scary spiritual experiences, now I know those do exist. On the contrary, now I know it’s possible to have amazing powerful positive spiritual experiences. I can’t explain why I have to learn things in reverse but I do. We’re all wired differently. Most things contain part truth and part lie, both in the natural and super natural world. Isn’t it our jobs here on earth to become better at discerning? I love the concept of unity and oneness…I want it to be true with every bone in my body. I want karma, reincarnation, christ consciousness, Brahman, Allah, Krishna, Ahura Mazda, Elohim, Judaism, Henotheism, Pantheism, Dystheism, Agnosticism, Paganism, Open Theism, relativistic inclusivism, syncretism, Atheism, omnitheism, pandeism, perennial philosophy to all be true. I want everyone to right. I’m slowly, slowly finding where I reside within it all.
I admit, I’ll probably be lost and found, over and over again in this life. We’re constantly trying to balance our energy and love between self, others and god. It may never fully balanced at all times and that’s ok. Grace does exist.
All I can say is, I’m a lot wiser than I was a year ago. I could have sat around watching tv with my head in the sand, but I didn’t feel like that was me. Has allowing all these things to enter my life been easy, untaxing and life giving? Yes and No. It’s been confusing and it has been enlightening all in one. This is what I consider to be research. I know these are experiences I can speak to for the rest of my life. I now have a wider spiritual barometer to speak on. Ask God why I had all this spare time at this point in my life? If it’s all being used for good, why do we constantly have to fear going through it?
How can we sharpen our connection with intuition or holy spirit? I want to be able to have conversations with a wider group of people and I felt like the terms being used were very synonymous. If I now have the ability to speak in a common language about a concept with someone I wouldn’t have been able to prior, isn’t that a good thing? Isn’t having the conversation about the concept, more important than using the exact terminology that makes us comfortable? Most people can’t even hear each other out because they have such a visceral reaction to a term. How is anything suppose to shift if we can’t even talk about it? Connecting with others about these topics maybe trying to take the place of me having a person connection and conversation about it, but I use outside data to spark my own thought process.
Have I worshiped “white light” recently? Yes. Am I against yoga? Not really, it goes back to intent for me. How about meditation? No, aren’t prayer and meditation one in the same? Am I against spirit guides? Most likely. Am I against astral projection? Absolutely Yes. Do I believe the law of attraction? Partially. We have to trust that the point in someone’s journey is valid, true, worthwhile, and needs to be lived out.
All I’m saying is, can we agree on one thing? We’re here to learn. Although, we may not always do it correctly in a way that pleases God, society or our loved ones. I believe learning the concept in whichever format it has been presented in is important to embrace. All I can say for now, is I will keep moving forward. I will keep evaluating. I will keep believing that these experiences are shaping me for something. I’m not saying there won’t be hiccups along the way but I will come out the other side better for it.
Why are we here in physical form? The best way I understand it is, the lessons were learning here can’t be fully experienced in just the spiritual or mental space. So yes, I’m using my body, mind and spirit to explore.
Maybe new age practices have something to teach more historical practices? The ways our bodies experience life in today’s hyper technological state, may require different energetic methods to connect, calm, heal and thrive. Why do we need to be so scared of the new?
One concept I’m loving, is noticing that your vibration, attracts similar vibrations. Watching the reflections, mirrors and projections that come towards me have been fascinating. It truly helps inform us about where we stand currently from a conscious and open place. We learn about ourselves through interaction with others because truly we can only experience self.
God uses the unlikely for the impossible. So let’s stop assigning evil to things we don’t understand. Maybe the true evil, is in the fact that we’re constantly trying to place the evil sticker on everyone’s forehead but our own?
For me religion, gets so unbalanced quite quickly. I get legalist AF and loose my joy, freedom and disconnect from the flow of life. I honestly don’t know if they will ever be streamlined for me. That’s my biggest deterrent, the reason I was put off by the whole thing originally in my teens.
It’s hard to know which is meant as metaphor and what is meant as law. When does the law fail to see individual circumstance? How is policy over people, loving?
Sometimes to maintain my happiness I have to let go of the whole spiritual concept for a bit and just live. I’m not going to make good decisions all the time and I really don’t have the desire to. It stresses me out. Why does accountability always have to go hand-in-hand with guilt, shame and fear? Why are they so tightly knit within in this space?
I understand the term about “having itching ears”, can you blame us though? Life is complicated, as is the bible. So we’re going to be punished for searching for ways to better our lives?
Here’s reference, if you’re not sure what I’m talking about:
You’re going to find that there will be times when people will have no stomach for solid teaching, but will fill up on spiritual junk food—catchy opinions that tickle their fancy. They’ll turn their backs on truth and chase mirages. But you—keep your eye on what you’re doing; accept the hard times along with the good; keep the Message alive; do a thorough job as God’s servant.
Can we allow people to go through their seasons and trust that they’ll end up ok? You how I know they need to go through it? Because they are. Because it’s happening. We can’t be in resistance to the reality of now.
Life is a grey area for me right now. I’m actually ok without knowing all the answers. I’d like to live in that place forever, I’m sure I won’t but it feels so nice to just say I don’t know. I want to swallow the christianity pill and be done with it but I can’t. Something is expanding right now and I don’t know what it is. I have a feeling that I a need a season without it being so tight around my neck. Lately, I’ve let physical manifestations speak to me. When I found my bible after moving it was decrepit, I threw it away and didn’t get another one. And to be honest, ya I’m angry at religion I feel like after my relationship ended that maybe I gave it too much clout in my life. Maybe I made too many decisions based off of it. And looking where I am now, I’m like ok thanks for all your help? I feel like I didn’t make enough decisions based on my own beliefs and tried to make my life fit into this republican, christian, western box and I don’t know if that’s what I want anymore or ever did. I feel like I showed up so hard for life and it didn’t show up back for me. And now I’m sitting here, like wtf just happened? I don’t know where or what I went wrong. On some level I know it will all work out for the good, but right now I’m just sitting here like, WHY?
Maybe I didn’t spend enough time with my emotions, maybe my ego was too big, maybe my love of money clouded me, maybe my drive for accomplishment was too strong, maybe my need for control left me alone. In christianity, there is so much denial of self that isn’t healthy for me right now. Yes, I’ve looked into astrology, human design, meyers briggs, enneagram; all to try and learn about self. Where is the call to learn about self in the bible? Where is the call to be in touch with our emotions? Because I’m honestly not hearing it. I’m all hearing is, this is how you can serve us best, him best, the church best. Finding, knowing and learning about self are vital for our survival. Can we chill for 1 minute about learning about god and practice learning about ourselves? Both are equally important. Why is this avoided, because what we find will just end up being all evil and sin filled?!
If anyone can please explain to me what the problem with astrology is, I’m all ears! I’ve googled it searched around the web, I can’t see anything. I’ve read Leviticus 19:26, it’s not clicking for me. I think people get confused that astrology is about predicting future events. Until you’ve read your entire birth chart and let go of the daily horoscopes, I think it’s hard to make an accurate depiction. If seeing ourselves is such a blindspot, then why is this tool so looked down upon? I think the main point being these mediumistic practices drive our sites away from god. They also drive us away from our own inner knowing. They ultimately give away our power. But consulting with them has given me a language to work from. I can see how they become addicting but I had to go see what it felt like. Honestly, they will be amongst some of wildest stories of my life. No regrets, just lessons and moving forward with a greater knowledge of self, simultaneous with the divine. Again, look at the intent behind someone’s actions, instead of being so quick to put it in the sin category. If the intent is to
On the flip side, I am attending a bible study right now, second one this year. Like I said, I’m open minded and wanted to explore this as an adult. I’ve been pretty annoyed about going but each time I do, I take something away that surprises me. I was actually blown away by some of the spiritual practices, channeling, physical manifestations, exploration of the brain, consciousness and quantum physics. I was like ok maybe this isn’t as old school as I thought. Cheers to those making modern approaches in religion. I met an amazing woman there who is on a similar track with learning about alternative healing and I can’t wait to see where that heads.
I can’t seem to get away from Steve Bancarz, as hard as I try, he’s always the first video that pops up on my YouTube feed. I will laugh at it, avoid it for weeks, yet still every time I open the app, there is the video staring me in the face. I’m pretty sure that’s not how the algorithm works, how do we explain that? I’d feel weird if I didn’t share it. The beginning is off putting for me, maybe just fast forward to around 19:00. In any case, I think it’s good to explore those coming from the new age movement and those leaving. *Sorry it’s a little over 2 hrs-haven’t finished it myself.
I try to remember our best trait, is always our biggest weakness. And for me, you guessed it, is the ability to be open minded. Either I’ll come to know accomplish through it or I’ll learn to become more selective. Take a guess at where it’s headed 😉
—Why doesn’t church feel spiritual? Christianity at it’s core is super natural. I mean it’s essentially about a guy raising from the dead. Where are the miracles, signs and wonders? We have enough skeptics.
—Where are the christian spiritual practices? (Don’t get me started on Bethel Redding) We have fasting and praying but is that it?
—Where is the acknowledgment of the body in religion? How are we expected to disown the concepts of yoga and chakras when there really isn’t even a close replacement for the category? Where is the movement of the body? Would it kill us to have a drum circle?
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We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience. -Teilhard De Chardin
Ships are safe in the harbor, but that’s not what ships are made for. – John Augustus Shedo
Maybe Carl Jung said it best, God and religion are aspects of our current consciousness.
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I can guarantee in about a month I probably will be over this philosophy kick, so I’ll get to the core what I really care about…it’s energetic work. It’s about the role our bodies play in spirituality. It’s about uncovering ailments in the body related to spiritual terms. It’s about learning how to hear from our body. We ignore it in so many ways, I think it needs to be elevated in society, in spirituality, in relation to the brain and especially in relation to emotions. No idea where I’ll head with this but it’s my #1 excitement lately. If you’re curious I’m reading: Break the Habit of Being Yourself, Emotion Code, Your Body Speaks Your Mind.